Mother's having a shit-fit 'cause she was an uber-control-freak and left the computer, I took over and logged her out, now she's screeching like a banshee needing to be shot.

Its my day-off.

I haven't worked in a week.

I got a new LJ because I forgot my password.

...And forgot that one's password. =.=;

I've been up since 10 am, after going to bed around 5 am.

Penny is in town, but so far we haven't been able to meet due to horrible planning ability.

Maxx's flight was delayed, cancelled then rescheduled.

Amanda wont talk to me.

Nick is shitty with me for socking his fiance'.

And there's no alcohol left in the house.

No wonder people become heroin addicts...

Wow. THAT was emo. With all that said, I'm actually in a pretty good mood, listening to Spice Girls, Aqua and Disney songs...

God I love "Be our guest" it's great!
...Except when it comes to singing pork and dancing veal...
Veal should never dance. Even when its still a calf.
...And if you think pork "sings"...perhaps you shouldn't be writing songs unless they're for a banjo-accompaniment...

"My big redneck wedding" comes to mind. Yes, its a show. Yes, I watched it. Yes, it made my brain spontaneously implode.

God bless roleplay...

Toodles~

So all sorts of shit has gone down recently- parentals (yes, both) have been raining brimstone and hellfire upon my ass; three people hate my guts- two of which are/were(?) my friends; the geek squad royally fucked me over- erasing ALL the data on my hard-drive to get rid of 2 bloody viruses, needless to say, 5 YEARS of data was lost, including my manuscripts for three books, two which were supposed to be finished and published (one on july 30th, the other on october 12th).

I've started clawing welts into myself for no apparent reason while I write/type; The Tobito theory reigns supreme; I had my 4-year gaia anniversary 6 days ago; and I'm officially a Kendo 10-dan.

I got some fanart from the lovely "Morbid Prince" (I love you to bits!!) which I would post if I had the link (might edit later).

I found my new favorite AMV: "Obsession" - http://youtube.com/watch?v=JBbUWgFMTys
and rediscovered one of my old favorites - http://youtube.com/watch?v=klNfwWsprzQ

And now I'm off to rewatch the sound 4 battles and draw avi-art as I plot my next Gaia quest. 

That is all.

I decided to update, even though nothing really fascinating has occurred.

Well...I'm getting a puppy.

A cute boxer Puppy...

Her name is Fawn, she's approximately 6 months old, and was a lost dog- found just 3 days ago by my cousin, emaciated to the point of looking like a horror movie character. She's gotten a bit better, but not much.

We pick her up on Friday. <3

So this weekend was...chaotic to say the least...and I got almost no sleep...

But Gwen and I are making progress on our story!

....And then there will be a zombie-thon at my house this friday...

And if I sound weird or kind of out of it (even though I think I'm managing to sound coherent quite well), its because I just woke up from my nap.

I went to bed around 7:45-8ish and yeah..

So lets see...my Kimimaro obsesion is returning..

And now I dont feel well..

peace

The title/subject is in reference to something only Sarah knows... >:D

But basically, in response to the pathetic actions of n00bs, we're making our own RP. Or at least we're planning to.

And...gunslinger girl = god....kinda.

Claes, Rico and Triela are awesome. Henrietta and Elsa are ok. But Angelica irritates me (sorry Luna). ....I want to be Claes!! ...But I'm the shortest...so I got stuck with Rico...Oh well, she's cute and reminds me of what it would be like if Seras and Captain Hans had a kid..

...And I had a really fun experience when I walked up the stairs a moment ago. I tripped over my cat and ended up on all fours, before glancing over my shoulder and watching Hotarubi cat-crawl over a roof...and I got this idea to try to mimick it..

And I did quite well (in my opinion), but for the first time, without skipping a single stair, I managed to make absolutely no noise!!

I'm so proud of myself right now...and U2's "Vertigo" is playing in the background and I'm just like "Wheeeeee."

But Sarah and Gwen couldn't come over for a Resident Evil-athon and so I'm sad...

But as Sarah said, these chocolates are like sex and so its like "yesssss", but without the serpentine/Orochi/Sai attachment.
Though I wouldn't mind a Sai attachment....<3

Just keep the "Skye" away from me..
Far, far away.

Why did funimation do sooo well on Gunslinger Girl, but so HORRIBLY on BloodBound?

SKYE?!
SKYE?!?!?!

*takes a deep breath*

Instead of having her have a snake come out from the space between her boobs, they had her pull a scarf out, and in mid-air the scarf turned into a snake. Poor Madoka...she has been reduced to a magician's trick...

And the fanbrats on Yahoo IM love it!!
....'Da fuck, man?!

*slamming head down* I really SHOULD stop watching it, because it upsets me so...but its so horrible, I can't look away!! T-T

Well I'm out to try to plan the RP, until I get sidetracked. ^^;

Peace.

God has a vendetta against me.

Tonight, after hell with the brats, I get home and my mom is stroking out- heart palipitations; chest pressure; coughing; her pace-maker all out of whack..(she has a test-thingy and I checked it)

So she got rushed off to the ER and I'm all freaking out and...

I never thought I'd say this, but thank god Alex has a crush on me, or I'd be completely alone right now...and that is NOT what I need..

So...panicking..

..in the shower..

..with a brand-new razor..

..not a good idea..

I kind of pity my legs..

..thank god for frost bite or I might be in a lot of pain right now.

....Is it bad to think of a seriously twisted antagonist when you're flipping out?

....why couldn't I think of Sai? ...Why did it have to be Father Renaldo?

*sigh* thats all I can stay focused for.

I'm off to wigg out elsewhere. 

Peace.

Or at least, no more Nationals....I was/still am too sick to make the 8-hour drive...So I guess, the first round of the semi-finals is as far as I get this year...

Depressing...

More Depressing: Jose's english dub from Gunslinger Girl, is the same voice as Shigure from Fruits Basket; alright
Oboro from Basilisk = Tohru Honda from Fruits Basket ; fine.
Airi/"Allie" from "Prophecy" = (Tiffany Grant) Asuka Langley from Evangelion, Kome from Blue Seed; WRONG!
Sai/"Skye" from "Prophecy" = Hitomi from Escaflowne/Sango from InuYasha; WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG!!

Airi is supposed to have a deep, but calming female voice; motherly/affectionate when talking to Sai, and Sai is supposed to have a lighter, but controlled, almost monotone voice, like Rei Ayanami, from Evangelion, or Rico from Gunslinger Girl (Both english dub. versions)

I writhe and squirm in agony. And then the fanbrats have the NERVE to say how "good" it is.

*screams* 

-begin rant-

Its so wrong! It isn't true! God make the horror stop!! Damn you, FUNIMATION!

DAAAAMN YOU!!!

And Sarah, it isn't better that it was "a good series to begin with", it only furthers my anguish and otherwise emotional distress.

GOD SAVE MY BABY!! PLEASE!! ADV!! GENEON!! SOMEONE!! SAVE MY BELOVED BABY!!!!

SAI DOES NOT DESERVE TO BE TREATED AS SUCH!! SHE'S A WONDERFUL CHARACTER!! HOW DARE YOU, FUNIMATION!! HOW DARE YOU RAPE HER AND LEAVE HER TO ROT IN THE SEA OF AMERICAN-FANDOM!!!

*sobs*

-end rant-

On a better note, Shouken no Kesson IS SPECTACULAR!!

It makes me all warm and squishy inside...
Like NAZIs!!!

Dokuyaku and Yuudoku are my new loves!! And Kiiro is adorable!!
Anyone who can dissolve into toxic fluid, force their way into someone's body and then explode them from within, and still look amazing when they reform is kickass in my book. So, Dokuyaku, you = love. :3

Well thats about all for today.

Just remember kids, you can't have "Neo" without the "Nazi"!!!

XD;;

...too much hellsing/ww2 cartoons..

"People have scars in unexpected places- personal road maps our pasts- where we've been; what we've done. Most of our wounds heal over time, but sometimes, some wounds we carry with us for longer periods of time- and sometimes, even though the cut is long gone, the pain lingers.

...Truth is, all wounds teach us something- what mistakes we've made, what to avoid, and what to do to keep it from happening over and over, and over again." - Izzy, from Grey's Anatomy.

So, obviously I watched Grey's Anatomy today. It was interesting- close friends with tumors, newlyweds already keeping secrets from one another, battle wounds, and family issues.

The "battle wounds" and "family issues" are the parts that I was really interested in. In the Battle wounds segment- there was this old veteran- fought in the Korean War, or whatever, made a decision that pissed his men off, and ended up getting shot by them, because of it. 50 years he had that bullet in his back, and when they finally took it out, it was too worn to really see anything/read anything on it. So for 50 years, he was tormented by being shot by one of his own- his hatered consumed his life, and left him empty...and then there was nothing to show for it...

Then in the "family issues" segment, Marydith had dinner with her father and his new wife, and flipped when her father made a reference to his new baby, with his new wife, as looking like "Molly" from a picture that he and molly were in; only to have marydith tell him that it was her and him in the picture...and he didn't believe her at first...then got all quiet.... And it really upset me for some reason...

I dunno. I guess I shouldn't watch that show.

Especially not with a brat-girl who sits there and keeps refering back to Izzy's dead lover...and how his ghost passed her in the hall and said her name, and she seemed to hear it, before walking out into the night...and just

ARG!

Damnit, I need to go write...

Freaky thing that happened today: as I was leaving my babysitting job, I looked over at the hospital/university-place that is right next to do their house, and there was a flicker of normal yellow-light in a window, then it was purplish, then it went out completely, but I could still see a shadow in the window, staring out.

FREAKY!!

So now I'm going to go write about that.

Yeah.

Peace.

So today sucked- I mean really SUCKED, aside from having mr. semrad in the morning..

I ended up with the migrane from HELL...now I know how Gaara feels..

And my Shrink only made it worse by telling me I have a father-complex.

Do you have any idea how creepy that is? I do NOT go for 60-year old Prussian/Russian mutts that drink way more than they should, end up in jail 7-9 months of the year, and who have more bastard children than all of Baast's brothels combined.

...Ok maybe he isn't that bad....but still... I have 26 half-siblings running around THAT I KNOW OF.

I've only met 9 of them- and their all as fucked up (some more so) than I am.

Examples:
*Uses codenames*
Rochel is 16, she believes that the devil comes out in the dark, and so she has the lights on in her room, 24/7. She also had her mom install a private generator, so that if the power ever goes out, she'll still have that to rely on.
Matt is 12, he is straight, or so we think, loves girls- talks almost non-stop about them, yet he gives some of his classmen (at his all-male catholic school) hand/blowjobs. (Don't ask how I know this)
Jan (Not valentine) is 22, lives in Northern Austria. He has 7 or 8 younger brothers- all from different fathers; he forces them to dress up in ...well dresses, and do incredibly demeaning things in public.
Annette is 14, and the subject of one of my nonfiction-seems-like-fiction stories. She is a drug addict (some oppiate I think), a raging alcoholic and a chain-smoker. She lives alone I stayed with her for 2 weeks when I visited the Netherlands. She lives in an apartment by herself, works at a bar as a waitress, and is in a specialized nightschool to become a bartender. Her dream is to open a Pub/take over after her current boss leaves.

Now do any of you have a general idea of why I hate my father so?

*sigh*
And in response to your question, Britt, she is me- my nazi-conformist-cheerleader self; my internal version of my mother.

Well I took a 3 hour nap, and now I've got to do my homework, so peace.

The Champion by Hammerfall - http://youtube.com/watch?v=FPiI-JmYITc

Easily by the Red Hot Chili Peppers:

Easily let's get carried away
Easily let's get married today
Shao Lin shouted a rose
From his throat
Everything must go
A lickin' stick is thicker
When you break it to show
Everything must go

The story of a woman on the morning of a war
Remind me if you will exactly what we're
fighting for

Calling calling for something in the air
Calling calling I know you must be there

Easily let's get caught in a wave
Easily we won't get caught in a cage
Shao Lin shakin' for the sake
Of his soul - Everything must go
Lookin' mighty tired of
All the things that you own
Everything must go

I can't tell you who to idolize
You think it's almost over
But it's only on the rise
Calling calling
For something in the air
Calling calling I know you must be there

The story of a woman on the morning of a war
Remind me if you will exactly what we're
fighting for

Throw me to the wolves because
Because there's order in the pack
Throw me to the sky
Because I know I'm coming back

Shao Lin shakin' for the sake
Of his soul - Everything must go
Lookin' mighty tired of
All the things that you own
Everything must go

The story of a woman on the morning of a war
Remind me if you will exactly what we're
fighting for

Calling calling for something in the air
Calling calling I know you must be there

I don't want to be your little research monkey
boy
The creature that I am is only going to destroy

Throw me to the wolves
Because there's order in the pack
Throw me to the sky
Because I know I'm coming back

Easily

Edit: She stole my goddamned Idea, and didn't even give me fucking credit- and now she won't even talk to me!! What the fuck?! It was my idea, my goddamned idea, and I made the mistake of telling her because I wanted to see what she thought of it, and she goes and STEALS IT! Writing an aff about it and no a single ounce of credit. Tewelly, I hate you with a passion right now.